There have been some sleepless nights recently, mostly due to anxiety about issues in my life. A quote found me that basically reflected that anxiety was my brain's attempt to live in the future rather than the present. I like that perspective and will try to use it to curb my tendency to freak out. Now mind you, I feel that a little bit of anxiety is necessary, it keeps one on her toes. It's the paralyzing, mind controlling anxiety that I'm not good with controlling.
Don't you just love it when you go to bed and a problem gets on your mind and keeps you from drifting off to sleep. I know I wrestled with a particular problem for over an hour. It involved sharing a piece of information or keeping it to myself. I went over every perspective, scenario, method I could think of at that time to figure out what to do. I couldn't involve my usual talk it over people because one, it was the middle of the night, and two it involved one of those people. Usually my advice to others, and myself, is to give it three days and most problems will work themselves out, or at least the circumstances will change. But even this thought process would not let me get to sleep.
Finally, I just gave it up. I just said, "Lord, I don't know what to do, I'm going to have to send this one back to you." Sounds simple,right? Not for me. I'm a mediator and a fixer and a problem solver. Giving up is not an option I choose very often. But it worked. I drifted off to sleep. Yes, I'm still thinking about the problem today but I'm content with not taking action. I am waiting my three days to see what happens.
So if you're wrestling with something that's keeping you sleepless, I feel you! And if you have some insight, please feel free to share.
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